This was actually my last Day of work at A***. I resigned for sake of my poor health. I wouldn't want to go to work i was scared, anxious and very panicking, i was till on fluoxetine.
My husband & i took the taxi to my A*** com. To return my badge, clear my belongings , sign exit interview. Luckily with the help of my qa engineer, eliada. i was able to do all things neatly. She knew i had depression and she helped me alot! Really got to thanked her.
I dunno why i reacted very strange i cry the moment i stepped into the office.
I feel very terrible. But after letting out the cry i feel much more better. My colleague , Ah mei says she's pregnant after the giddy symptoms, happy for her, coz it's a long wait.
Colleagues:
Yati (former colleague at F***)
Jennifer Law
Chye Mei Yuen
Cheng Boling
Eric Lau
Eliada Lim
Daniel Seah
I was lucky to get a job after i left the job at cariman.
It's A***.
Located at Kallang. I think think job is good(People, food milo, biscuits, good pay=able to pay what i got at f***) but somehow i didn't worked long, i didn't know what was the EXACT problem but only knew i was lethargic, tired, sleepy to go to work almost everyday.
My job requires me to carry heavy metal's for semiconductor's assemblies.
My boss, qa engineer and end users we good to me and everyone.
Some how still lack of something maybe due to my poor health, i couldn't perform anything well.
When i talked on the phone , ppl can't hear me and even mistook me for an "Ah GUA" what the hack!! Coz i lost my voice from an operation in year 2008. That's really offensive.. i really take it to heart. From feb 2010, i tend to be very sick and can't do my job well, Always feel giddy & anxoius.
The Giddy symptoms is persistent, i even went to hospital. Since Dec 2009, i had been going to see neurosurgeons Dr. for this dizzy problem. Did a brain CT scan, tilt table test, blood test for calcium & thyroid.
All came out well !
What's the culprit wonder if it was becoz i always need to talk alot so i always experience lacking of breath. I went to see GP (Tan kah King at yishun). I had depression , that time i was very scared to go out , even shopping centres and crowded places. I even took Fluoxetine 15 mg and diapezam for restful nights. Which are meant for depression.
Depression signs:
*Tight Feeling
*Anxiety
*Lump in the throat
*Sleepy
*Can't concentrate
*Breathless
I hope i can recover from this stupid illness..
My previous company is F********** . I enjoyed working there but only lasted for about 5 years. Duration is from 24 May 2004 ~ 30 June 2009. Because company wanted to shift the manufacturing area to china. So there is a retrenchment on going since then.
Sep 2008 = Roshmawati (Left on her own)
Oct 2008 = Khor leong Onn
Feb 2009 = Liu Xiang Lin & My husband
Apr 2009 = Jacky lim
May 2009 = Lin wenqin
Jun 2009 = X****
Oct 2009 = Yati
And i rested for about 1 week and found a job at cariman located at woodlands sector. Cariman Pte Ltd is not a good company coz at that time they were oso in bad shape business is not good, economic crisis. Having no choice and introduction by Alvin yeow(ex Proj. engineer) i took the job and worked from 24 Jul 2009 ~ 30 Jul 2009, only 7 days work. Luckily i was paid. around $300+. The boss is trying to push my salary down and when i told him i go another job, he purposely increased by $200. I still think there is room for improvement. As it's facing financial problems and i am not satisfied with the salary so no room for negotiation. Bye bye!!
Stayed in the hospital for 1 week, 2 days in ICU, coz i really cough very badly. the dr claimed that the water of whatever has gone to my lungs causing the phelgms and mucous all other problems.
I even had alot of plugs and milk pipe linked to my body, the feeling was devastated. i really can't feel good. Coughing and coughing non stopped.
Actually i even had sudden urge of dying straight away, maybe i was too depressed.Imagine like your body is in a mess and all the plugs stuck to your body, hands, wrist, vagina(for urinating), neck(for blood dripping), nose(oxygen supply) Like what's life has got for me. It's a total torment.
Day 2 @ ICU (saturday night no sleep) - cough, vommit non stopped.
Day 3 @ ICU (sunday night no sleep) - cough badly and vommit .
Just feel like doing nothing, terrible, can get up, just stay on bed and i can't eat . Canned Milk (Isocal) was delivered to my stomach using a pipe linked to the passage of my stomach.
Day 4 @ Ward = After restless (continuously no sleep!!! wide eye open!!!) 2 nights in ICU, i was finally wheeled to the normal patients Ward. From here i feel breathy (no oxygen supply, to breathe on my own) but not so intense as the ICU. but i feel terrribly hot and sticky, but can't bath. Cough and spit bloody phelgms.
Day 5 @ Ward = Finally had a hair wash on my own without any nurse assistance.(very brave), coz hair too itchy to tolerate.
Day 6 @ Ward = Rest and cough
Day 7 @ Ward = Going back home. After i reached home i can sleep for 6 hours. But was back home with the milk feeding isocal pipe. i need to learn how to feed myself for the rest of the 3 weeks!!! No food, cannot swallow at all,
Results after opt:
- cannot swallow
- vocal chord 1 side paralysis
- cannot speak well
- hoarse and breathy voice.
- coughing non stopped
- Left leg pain, thrombosis (from the grafting of veins)
- Sore throat (rubbing of feeding tube in throat
)
There's a lot of ups and down in life and life is really unpredictable. In Mar 2008, i was diagnose with a tumour in my left neck. Bumpy and with a mass with no pains..... which was what they called a carotid body tumour very rare illness in spore. Cause it's happening to ppl who stays in high altitude like mountains, which is lack of oxygen.. would i say i have lack in oxygen??
The i went down to west side of spore's hospitals to have a check up, did all the blood test, CT scans(expensive), Ultrasound scan.
On 25 may 2008, i had a angiogram to check the location of the tumour. which the dr. need to be sure of b4 doing the resection of body tumour(neck) and grafting of the veins to act as a supply for the missing big blood vein. (*cry*) so many operation to do...
On 13 June 2008, had a major operation at the west side spore's hospital. About 10 hours, cost me a bomb, SDG $17K. luckily i was covered under my ex-company's insurance and oso my own insurance. Although i didn't have to pay a single cents,you still need to pay for the pre-operation reviewing fees and post-operations follow ups, Taxi fares Etc...
We had our ROM wedding at the Registry of marriage on 27 NOV 2007 (Tues), Fine day. We were 26 & 30 then. Register at 10.45am. In the late morning. I remember i went down to North area to do my makeup + hairdo =$120. It's expensive but i dunno how to do my own makeup and the hand flower 1 bouquet cost $60, pink. ❤❤
My family of 6 but only 5 went for the ROM + my Frenz 3, My husband side total of 7. His Elder Bro 3ppl, parents 2, Grandma , Uncle. All in all = 15. Registration later we went to amk for karaoke session + Dim sum bought by my brother at amk hub . Late evening had dinner at the Gim tim restaurant in YCK. Per head is 30.00++ so all in total around 20ppl. Cost about $800. Booked the transport for $200 per day!
We Just had a wonderful day and i was promoted to Misus from then!! ❤❤
